Friday, October 31, 2008

It's weird that I just realized that I'm that single guy you see at the grocery store. You know, the one who's shopping with the hand held basket, everything placed in it oh so carefully. The guy, who's buying fresh vegetables and fruits, enough for only one to eat. The guy who wants everything packed into one bag, so it's all very easy to carry. Perhaps he pays in exact cash.

It's not so bad, I have a decent job, a decent house, a nice bike. I was even half invited to a party tonight by a woman, she asked for my number and maybe she'll call, maybe she won't. She seems nice enough. She's 31.

Tomorrow morning my new handle bars will come in the mail, and I'm really, really excited about this. I'll post pictures.

Also, tomorrow I'll make a video tour of my house, so all like 3 of you that read this drivel can see how it looks.

here's me, right now.

Monday, October 27, 2008

So I’ve got some major chills. This man is amazing. I believe that most of his speeches are from memory, at least he doesn’t seem to be reading anything in this clip. I really do get a sense of hope from hearing him speak.

Reminds me of a very good preacher, and even of MLK.


Tuesday, October 21, 2008


I've been going to the beach, working on my tan. ;) It seems that at the beach there are no problems, you can't hear cars, or construction, or airplanes just the sound of the water and the warmth of the sun. There's also a lot of sea life in the water here, which is cool.

I've been biking a lot. Today I shredded the city, from downtown to vanderbilt and everywhere in between. I think I've figured out my route to work, a route that blends directness and safety.

I haven't had a drop of alcohol in over two weeks. I have been drinking lots and lots of water, home brewed coffee and tea.

Also, I have to put this out there, every bit of Star Wars is believable to me except for in Episode 5 where Luke is offered to come to the Dark Side by his father Darth Vader and instead of joining him he chooses to fall down a shaft and miraculously gets sucked into a tube and ends up hanging from an antenna and then Leia flys over and picks him up just in time. Seriously?

I'm excited to meet new people and hang out with said people. I want to do fun stuff and not have any drama. I've only seen a few people around who I think I can "relate" to, one dude at the library(while I was waiting in line to vote) and a few others in passing while riding my bike. Hopefully there are cool people here who are down for fun times.

I've also noted that such people I can "relate" to are very scarce. Almost everywhere I've been to so far, I seem to be the most "punk rock" person there, or the odd ball which is saying a lot.

Future friends, where are you!?

Ha, here's a picture of the sunset from my bike ride last night.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

So I had a really nice bike ride tonight. I had to ride a long long way to find a "not so nice" area of town, but I found it. Funny that even the not so nice area aren't that bad compared to Sarasota. I get a good vibe from this town, so we'll see.

All I really know is that I feel exorcised, I feel really good.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Every passing second brings me to an almost supernatural freedom. Although this change makes me sad in ways that I can't explain, I know it'll be okay.

I'm ready to move on, and I'm awaiting the moment when I am set free.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

My friend Emily said this today.

Oh man. Let it just be said that I will not, am not, and would never vote for someone based solely on candid photographs of that person, but can you not see how much charisma this man has in every single picture of him? If I didn’t know who he was, I’d want to know who he was.

That says quite a lot, I think about the character of Barack Obama, it's true. Some people, and yes they're typically rock stars, you see them in public or in photos and you just want to know them, you want to be around them and this is how I feel about Barack Obama.

Some people draw people to them and I think that this man does that.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Coming home from work every day and having to play catch-up on all the news and blogs I follow is like the worst homework ever. At least when I read history in school I knew it was over. Now I read all this shit and just freak out.

Here are examples, 10 pages of Ancient US History.
Make Believe Maverick.

2 pages of Current Events
Sarah Palin's Deception.

NOT TO MENTION Commentary's and regular news sites.
Normal, Outraged People.

And CNN is on full blast at all times. Nov 4th I'm taking a vacation.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

So it's come to my attention that some people follow my blog via blogspot's follow tool or whatever. I don't use this feature, more likely than not I follow your blog with the Google Reader tool. Don't think that I don't follow your blog.

It's really hard to realize that I have to get drunk every night(alone), no matter what the circumstances.

There's a really amazing woman at work, who dates a good friend of mine. She is a mother of 4 wonderful children, she trys to help me out of whatever I'm in. But I always refuse help, I can't not participate in 99% of social activities. Miss Fox, I'd love to hang out with you guys, and have normal conversations, but I can't bring myself to doing such.

If I'm out in public I'm preforming, I'm acting because if I pretend that there are cameras everywhere filming me I can act. I can act like I'm not afraid to interact with everyone(which I'm really good at).

I don't know that this will change anytime soon, but I'd like to hope that I can not be so crazy.

You wouldn't know it but I'm drunk now, I'm still a great typer.

I'm going south, into the swamps, into hiding, and when the water rises I'll either sink or drown, but what's for sure is that the tide will rise. The rising tide.
One thing I'd like to note about Christians is that Christians in my experience tend to vote for Christians. This is typical across the board, even if the Christian candidate tends to have a poor economic plan, or a poor or reckless view on foreign affairs. They want to vote for the person that has the same god as they do, if they think that god has appointed said candidates they too should vote for them.

Aside from John F. Kennedy(and vaguely, because JFK was kinda shady) I can't think of any Democratic president who was deeply religious. So in my opinion Christians tend to vote republican.

How doe the republicans turn the christian voter around? Well, it comes from the christian right deciding that God doesn't want them to vote for the person who speaks His name loudest, they should be voting for the candidate who has the soundest perspective on economic issues, social change, and foreign policy.

But logically, this won't happen.

I know this to be true because I don't know one middle aged christian who is going to vote for Obama, and any serious christian I know who is voting I find that they're voting for a 3rd party candidate like Ron Paul. They don't want the lesser of two evils, they want to vote their conscious. And how does the democrats convince these people who would vote for a 3rd party to turn their vote to the democrats? It all comes back to educating people about economic issues, social issues, and foreign policy issues, and that in my mind won't happen. It's just too hard to educate Americans.

Also as an aside, why is it such a travesty according to McCain/Palin for Barack Obama or any leader to sit down with dictators around the world? What's so wrote with meeting with the Chavez's of the world? How can it hurt us to listen to their concerns and issues?

If you read this comment, I want your opinions and to know who exactly is reading this, if anyone.

Friday, October 3, 2008

Okay, so I'll admit that in the past 8 years I've always voted for a 3rd party candidate. In 2000 I voted for Howard Phillips and in 2004 I clipped a chad for Michael Peroutka , both of those men ran on the Constitution Party primarily for their view on taxes among other things.

I stand by those votes, I don't regret it. But now, in 2008 I'm terrified. I'm loosing sleep, I'm breaking into tears at the fact that Sarah Palin and John McCain will be our next president. I now know how most normal people felt four years ago when they didn't want four more years of Bush.

Our government is terrifyingly evil on every level, it's almost to me, incomprehensible.

What do you think?

Thursday, October 2, 2008

if i have to hear "john mccain was the maverick" or "we all know that john mccain is known as a maverick"


being a maverick in the senate is like saying you're a nigger in a room full of black people. you're all black, you're no different from everyone else, you just call yourself something different.

this may be a bad example but i hope you get what i'm saying.

this whole campaign on both sides is really really frustrating, but especially from the republican side.

kill me.
McPalin and Obiden both don't support gay marriage. What a downer. At least Bamabiden would give gays equal civil rights in regards to property and money issues.

Why is this country in retrograde?
I like Lou Dobbs more and more each day. He says a lot of things that most people think and that most journalists want to shout, but can't. Example, "What in the world is going on with our "leadership" in government?"

He rules.

On the flip side, this whole bailout thing makes me really sad. Like to where I just want to cry. A 450 page bill with 150 billion added on as "earmarks" honestly, tax breaks for 10 companies that make children's wooden arrows? Fuck all.

Also mark my words, if John McCain gets elected and DIES and Sarah Palin becomes president, I'm moving out of country.

Went to Naples today, good stuff.