Well, another step in the direction of crazy . I have started accumlating multiple pieces of the same articles of clothing. Several pairs of the same color and style of jeans and similar shirts.

Also i'm on caffine overload.
I saw a pretty good movie today.
Ate Chick-fli-a.
Sucked at guitar hero in best buy and fantasized about owning a Mac, some day soon.

Let me also mention that the first piece of recorded music I ever bought myself(with my allowence) was the Cocktail sound track, back in like '89.
I used to put it on and jump on the bed while listening.

Some things are ingrained, after all I was named after a man who committed suicide.

I used to drink a lot and paint naked(not that I still don't drink a lot). I miss that.

Watching Cocktail reminds me of those old good times. That's why I like it. I remember all the women that came and went during those times.
So much to gain, so little aquired.

You learn a lot about yourself when you're at your lowest. Like doing coke off a dirty toilet seat at work, or waking covered in your own vomit, and throwing away all that you own.
Once I quit my job and just biked for months . I'm not going to quit my job now, i like it too much.

It takes a lot of guts to live life on your wits alone, that's all I really wanna do.

I'm going to start painting again.

My recently alphabetize dvd collection . 123 dvd's. For some reason i've got 2 copies of Punch Drunk Love , The Boondock Saints, and The Terminal.

Right now I'm watching Cocktail for probably the 150th time. I've got every word memorized, and it always makes me feel centered.

Fucked up, i know.

I'm so excited!