It's weird that I just realized that I'm that single guy you see at the grocery store. You know, the one who's shopping with the hand held basket, everything placed in it oh so carefully. The guy, who's buying fresh vegetables and fruits, enough for only one to eat. The guy who wants everything packed into one bag, so it's all very easy to carry. Perhaps he pays in exact cash.

It's not so bad, I have a decent job, a decent house, a nice bike. I was even half invited to a party tonight by a woman, she asked for my number and maybe she'll call, maybe she won't. She seems nice enough. She's 31.

Tomorrow morning my new handle bars will come in the mail, and I'm really, really excited about this. I'll post pictures.

Also, tomorrow I'll make a video tour of my house, so all like 3 of you that read this drivel can see how it looks.

here's me, right now.

So I’ve got some major chills. This man is amazing. I believe that most of his speeches are from memory, at least he doesn’t seem to be reading anything in this clip. I really do get a sense of hope from hearing him speak.

Reminds me of a very good preacher, and even of MLK.

Amazing.

Lately,

I've been going to the beach, working on my tan. ;) It seems that at the beach there are no problems, you can't hear cars, or construction, or airplanes just the sound of the water and the warmth of the sun. There's also a lot of sea life in the water here, which is cool.

I've been biking a lot. Today I shredded the city, from downtown to vanderbilt and everywhere in between. I think I've figured out my route to work, a route that blends directness and safety.

I haven't had a drop of alcohol in over two weeks. I have been drinking lots and lots of water, home brewed coffee and tea.

Also, I have to put this out there, every bit of Star Wars is believable to me except for in Episode 5 where Luke is offered to come to the Dark Side by his father Darth Vader and instead of joining him he chooses to fall down a shaft and miraculously gets sucked into a tube and ends up hanging from an antenna and then Leia flys over and picks him up just in time. Seriously?

I'm excited to meet new people and hang out with said people. I want to do fun stuff and not have any drama. I've only seen a few people around who I think I can "relate" to, one dude at the library(while I was waiting in line to vote) and a few others in passing while riding my bike. Hopefully there are cool people here who are down for fun times.

I've also noted that such people I can "relate" to are very scarce. Almost everywhere I've been to so far, I seem to be the most "punk rock" person there, or the odd ball which is saying a lot.

Future friends, where are you!?

Ha, here's a picture of the sunset from my bike ride last night.

So I had a really nice bike ride tonight. I had to ride a long long way to find a "not so nice" area of town, but I found it. Funny that even the not so nice area aren't that bad compared to Sarasota. I get a good vibe from this town, so we'll see.

All I really know is that I feel exorcised, I feel really good.

Every passing second brings me to an almost supernatural freedom. Although this change makes me sad in ways that I can't explain, I know it'll be okay.

I'm ready to move on, and I'm awaiting the moment when I am set free.